The Future

While time lasts there will always be a future, and that future will hold both good and evil, since the world is made to that mingled pattern.

-Dorothy Sayers

FML

FINALS... Part Deux

Oh blessed finals... the point at which you realize you are completely screwed. Or at least I feel that way. I figure that no matter how much I study I'll probably still fail. I guess you could say I'm just setting myself up for destruction by acting negatively but honay, I'm a realist and that's life.

So here's to a week of sweat, blood, and tears...



May my dreams rest in peace.

My break from studying for Chem...

I saw this on my sister's blog so I thought I'd it...

Opening credits: Shut Your Mouth- Automatic Loveletter

Waking up: This Place is a Prison- The Postal Service

First day of school: It's so Simple- Saosin (true)

Driving: Baby You're My Light- Richard Hawley

Prom: A Heavy Hearted Work of Staggering Genius- Anberlin

Falling in love: Tremble for My Love- Collective Soul

First love song: It's You- I Hate Kate (ah....)

Breaking up: Restraining Order Blues- Spitalfield (kind of funny when you think about it)

Getting back together: Summer Wind Was Always Our Song- The Ataris

Wedding: Autographs and Apologies- Motion City Soundtrack

Birth of child: Are We There Yet?- The Ataris (bahahahahaha... this might be only funny to me...)

Mental breakdown: Meet Me At My Window- Jack's Mannequin

Flashback: Lullabies- All Time Low

Final battle: All I'm Losing is Me- Saves the Day

Death scene: Globes and Maps- Something Corporate

Funeral song: Let You Go- Self Against City

End credits: You Know How I Do- Taking Back Sunday

Career Choice???

So I've been thinking... yeah, I know... Anyway... Ever since I was little I've wanted to be a doctor. I've always been about the blood and guts and what not but I've never considered any other profession. I guess when I came to college I was thinking that I would be one of those people who knew what they were going to be. But now, I've already changed my major once, and I'm really considering if this is what is right for me. I guess I also feel pressured to be "the doctor" because for so long that's what people have seen me as even though I wasn't even on that path yet. I feel as though if I don't become what they are expecting me to be I'll just disappoint them.

I mean, what if I decided I wanted to be a journalist. I love to write and the other day someone told me they could picture me in New York working for some magazine. I've never thought about it until now, but I could also see myself doing it.

I have all these dreams and I really want to achieve them. I want to travel. I want to live in London, New York, and LA for a couple years each. I have this idea of living in England and meeting my husband there... yeah, a little intense. But then I started to think about the dynamics of achieving all of these things and when you are on your way to becoming a doctor, it consumes so much of your life. And plus, I want to have a family. Granted, I don't want to have kids until I'm about 30, but still that's only 11 years from now. That's not that far away.

I guess I shouldn't be looking so much into this considering I'm still only a freshman in college but it's never too early to plan and reconsider your life... right?

Finals...

*shutters* Just the sound of it makes me cringe.

As you may have guessed, finals are next week and I have now just realized how much I did not pay attention in class. Honestly?! Was I counting the specks on the wall when my professor was explaining wave particle duality? Oh my goodness. My life this week has been consisting of Fritos, Christmas cookies, and Monsters. Freshman 15 is not gained throughout the year... it is gained during finals week; five pounds for every quarter. Makes sense...

So not only is my brain going to be fried after the 12th... oh no, I will have gotten fatter in the process.

I just wish that it could be Friday already so I can go shopping and can work off the stress (and hopefully any additional calories).

All I have to say is this better pay off in the end.

I hate life.